Originally Posted by
kidd
It's not a matter of honor. It's a cowardly and selfish way out. You couldn't stand seeing yourself as selfish. So, you choose to kill yourself so that you can say to yourself "See? I'm not selfish. I'm filled with guilt until I need to kill himself. So, I am honorable." Do you know how much guilt you might pile on your love ones by this 'honorable' act of yours?
It's very easy to beat yourself up over past mistakes, because it will make you feel less of a bad guy. It makes you feel 'selfish' to forgive yourself over past bad decision. So, letting go and forgiving yourself is the hard part.