~Humankind cannot bear very much reality~
Leila: YOU WANT TO WHAT???
Ray: Miss Please calm down, i mean..........er......... can you PRETEND to be my girlfriend
Meanwhile downstairs in the car, she was too scared to go in, for the first time in their relationship she could feel that there was a chance she might lose Raymond, reflecting back on their relationship, it was always Raymond that was pampering her. From the country pins, to small presents to constant candle light dinners to surprises. It was always him that was pleasing her. Although she did try to do it the other way round, it never seemed to have the same effect that it did on her. In addition she was thinking back to the conversation that he and Kevin had back at the office. Why did he do it. Was it becuase he though that she was not happy enough being with her? Or was it becuase he felt that Kevin was better qualified then he. She contemplated to redial the number but was scared, and she didn't know why but her body seemed to have controled her mind and she drove away aimlessly into the night.
Meanwhile upstairs Raymond told Leila about Charmaine, how he had planned to propose to her on Christmas eve. How he had planned to set the marriage on the airplane in mid air, how he had already chosen their marraige ring which could be combined into one to form one right, which meant that they were always meant to be the one and only one for each other. That was until he received his medical report today. He remembered how much Leila cried when Desmond left, he told her that she used to be a happy-go-lucky person, taking the world as it came along, but after Desmond left he rarely saw her smile. He didn't want Charmaine to be like her.
Leila felt bad for Ray, she know what he was pointing at, since Desmond left 2 years ago, she has not even gone back to work. She felt that life was meaningless, she and Desmond started going out at 15 and by 16 they had had their whole life planned out. They started working part time to earn money at the age of 18 and by 20 they had made their first million after a lucky investment. They spotted their luck and vowed to never depend on luck again so they had used the money to invest in both of their education, they survived on interest rates and had been financially independent since then. But when he left, her life left her as well. Until today she has not fully recovered. She left Hong Kong for the world and tried desperately not to come back unless it was Des's anniversary, she avoided Hong Kong. Plus the fact that Ray looked exactly like Des since they were twins and that she was scared that she would fall for him. She only wants Des in her heart and nothing more.
They had to do it smart, something sudden and abrupt would not make Charmaine leave, Ray knew her too well, they had to do it subconsciously. Meanwhile Ray promised Leila that he would accept treatment on the condition that she helped him.
It was not easy to begin with, especially the part where he had to resist calling her or smsing her, but he knew it was for her good. He however continued with the off-day arrangement, lunch then dinner. But he purposely made Leila sms him more often during those lunch hours and would pretend to smile at them when he receives something. He could see that she was beginning to get suspicious but to his surprise she did not question him or even get angry at him. She was learning to be patient, but at the same time, Ray was flying to more obsure places with worst schedules, He could be absend from Hong Kong up to 4 or 5 days at a time and she knew that there was soemthing fishy about that.
He had to be smart about his plan, but theory was different from practical, often he could not resist holding on to her or kissing her and he was finding it very difficult to break up with her. He wanted to do it in the least suffering way for her and the only way would be that she hates him. But how could he make her hate him when he loves her so much???
Leila knew it was time to step up, she too did not want another person to suffer like her, the feeling of not being able to let go becuase the man did not abandon her but becuase god abandoned them. When Desmond wanted to break up with her she knew she had to stay becaused she loved him and it is becuase of the same love she need not another women to suffer on earth. She had to be more passive.
She was beginning to lose focus at work, she could feel that there was somethign wrong, although he might be with her physically, but his heart has flown off, she wants to know whats happening, but she didn't know how to ask. They were not as affectionate as they were before, now they barely held hands or even kiss. Suddenly she fells the fear of losing him. However on the other hand she began to take more notice of Kevin, she realise that he was exceptionally nice to her, being at her position she was definately qualified to have her own working room but the one shes at right now is definately almost as big as his, he always brought her out to his meetings, everybody thought that they were a couple although both of them strongly denies it. He however would not bother her after work, once the matter was so urgent that there was a chance that he might lose millions of dollars if that particualr document was not altered correctly but instead of calling her to do it together, he stayed up all night.
But the thing was the more he treated her that way the more she pushed him away and the more she wished that that was Raymond.
He felt that she knew his feelings for her, the more he tried to controlled it the more subconciously he acts towards her, he knew that he had to control it but it was relatively hard. She was beginning to avoid him, making unbelievable excuses such as having lunch with Raymond when he knew that he was off in another country (lol.... her phone won't ring that often). Or was he a bit too sensitive, she might just want to keep their relationship simple. Just friends and nothing more.
However he sensed that there was something on her mind, something that was bothering her, her work performance had dropped dramatically. But he dared not ask, he was in no position to ask. He feared that she might feel that her life has been intruded into.