Originally Posted by
AnhHung
I think the budhist in Yiden kicked in. He regret that he chosed not to save the baby for personal reasons; upcoming tournament and baby result of adultery. Fame, anger and revenge are not the way of a budhist. Thats why he repents.
Personally, I understand why YK(?) asked Yideng to save her baby, but she has no reason to hate him for not saving her baby. Beside, Yideng was still thinking about it (even though leaning against not saving) when she killed her own baby out of mercy.
From Chapter 31, Lovers' Handkerchief:
They heard Reverend Yideng continue, ?I could not take it much longer;
several times I wanted to just take the child and treat his injury, but
I kept looking at that handkerchief wrapped around the child?s chest.
The handkerchief with a pair of mandarin ducks embroidered on it, their
necks intertwined with each other. The mandarin ducks had white heads,
symbolizing they would grow old together. But why it was written, ?It?s
a pity not yet old but the hair on the head has turned white.?? As I
turned my head I saw the hair on her temples had turned white, I broke
in cold sweats. At that time my heart turned hard, I said, ?Fine, go
ahead and grow old together; just leave me lonely and cast away in this
palace as an emperor! This is you and your lover?s child; why would I
sacrifice my whole energy to revive him??
She looked at me, her last glance. It was full of blame and hatred.
Afterwards she had never looked at me anymore, but this one look I will
not forget till the day I die. She coldly said, ?Let me go, I want to
hold my child!? She was speaking with authority and determination; it
was as if she was my master, made it difficult for me to disobey.
Thereupon I unsealed her acupoints.